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[22 Dec 2004|11:33pm] |
So I got home Monday...of course there had to be snow...ocean exam was wicked easy...wicked...
So I've been shopping and running errands like crazy the past few days.
I hate sad news...
I really love Kyle, we have had our ups and downs lately, especially our downs, but I know I need him...I need him right now...I need my best friend..
I can't believe it's almost Christmas...this year has gone by so fast..wow First semester of college is over, wow!!!
I miss my friends, I miss my lil room..
I'm exhausted! This was so random, I did want to write something, but I forgot, I really should get that add checked out..
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[03 Dec 2004|07:06am] |
You have the eyes of a hawk. You're very much aware
about your surroundings and the situations that
you're in. People can't touch your things
because you would immediately notice what's
been touched or what's missing. You can analyze
people's thoughts and actions quite well.
That's good for you. Don't lose that sharp
vision of yours.
What Animal Eyes Do You Have?
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[03 Dec 2004|06:58am] |
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You are 'Silent Night'! You really enjoy
Christmas, and you like your Christmases
conventional. For you, Christmas is about
family and traditions, and you rather enjoy the
rituals of going to church at midnight and
turning off the lights before flaming the plum
pudding. Although you find Christmas shopping
frustrating, you like the excitement of
wrapping and hiding presents, and opening a
single door on the Advent Calendar each day.
You like the traditional carols, and probably
teach the children to sing along to them. More
than anyone else, you will probably actually
have a merry Christmas.
What Christmas Carol are you?
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Hello to you, bright one! You are the caring, nice
Christmas lights. You are a reliable person who
tends to usually shine people's ways for them.
You lighten up others, and always hope people
fell better. You don't like to see them sad,
hurt, or angry. Close friends or family may
find you a good source to speak with when they
are having problems, which is a great thing.
Merry Christmas =)
What Christmas Figure Are You?
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[15 Nov 2004|11:09pm] |
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i have a headache
i cant sleep
i'm freezing
campus cruiser doesn't work for me
i'm in a bad mood
i wanna jump off the bridge
i don't want to work this week
i dont want to do gay lab work
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[15 Nov 2004|09:37pm] |
i have so much work to do
-redo john kerry paper
-lab proposal
-lab on sediment that was due like 3 weeks ago
-lab on something else i totally don't understand
-make an appt with the career center
-math extra credit
-math take home
-scuba quizzes
i know i must be forgetting things. alrighty i think i'm gonna try to work on somethin
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[14 Nov 2004|08:56am] |
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Just got some pictures back.. ( pictures )
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| home for the weekend |
[14 Nov 2004|12:11am] |
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My dad picked me up at about 10:30 Friday and then we went to Jamestown for a little then came home. It feels like so much has changed. I don't know what it is, maybe because my cat isn't here or because my mom took all my posters down, something is just different. Kyle stayed over last night and we managed to not get in that many fights. Oh and I registered for classes last night which was a bitch! I couldn't get the times I wanted for history or they would conflict with other classes, so I decided to take lit phil. So here's my class schedule for next semester:
Monday Wednesday Thursday
9-10 Criminal Justice
10-11 Anthropology
1-2 Lit Phil
Tuesday Thursday
9:30-11 Crit Writing
12:30-2 Psych of Learning
So I'm happy with my classes, a little upset I couldn't take history but oh well. My original schedule I was going to have 2 8:00 classes a week but with classes that were full and so forth my earliest is now 9! Also Friday's I get out at 2 which is alright, I get out at 3:30 now. All my classes are in the same building which is cool, CAS...the closest one, yay! I avoided all of the north campus classes! I'm excited for next semester!
On another note, I got my hair straightened today, which just relaxes the curls, but now I should be able to brush it and not wear it on the top of my head everyday lol. I also went shopping with my mom in Hamden then I got dropped off at Kyles where I fell asleep in his bed . He brought me home at about 11:30. I'm real tired I think I'm going to go to bed now...it's sooo cold outside! Oh yea it snowed today! I was like whoa....I got up at about 5:30/6 (b/c my mom was up for work) and the dogs were on the deck playing in it hah. Okay I gotta go to bed now before I pass out!
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[09 Nov 2004|03:47pm] |
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November...wow...college has gone by so fast. It's crazy. I haven't been up to much, just hanging out.. I'm going home this weekend...it's almost been a month since I've been home! I know your impressed. This past weekend was my scuba diving certification. Wednesday I just have to take a written test then I have my certification for open water! It was real exciting...Saturday we were at Fort Adams (Newport) and Sunday we were at Fort Wetherall (Jamestown) I was scared at first on Saturday but then it got better. I had fun both days and bonded with some of the people in it so that was cool. I need to post photos soon!
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[10 Oct 2004|12:04am] |
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I'm home this weekend. Thursday night I didn't feel well and Friday I ended up skipping all of my classes. I guess it turned out "good" - in a bad kind of way though. My dad picked me up at about 11:30...we went to petco, a bathing suit store in newport, then to the cottage in jamestown to pick up some brush. As we were driving home my mom called my dad and then he gave me the phone. This is where my good day came to a hault. My mom told me that my cat Friendly was at the vet since Tuedsay. She stopped eating and couldn't even stand. Turns out she had congestive heart failure on the right side which is real bad for cats. The vet said she never saw a cat live longer than 2 weeks being put on medicine. She was so weak she couldn't even get up to go to the bathroom. It was so sad. She was a diabetic, enlarged liver and low white blood cell count. We would have to give her insilin, 3 heart pills and force feed her. We got back home at 5:15 and my dad, mom and I went to the vet. I felt so lost and clueless....I didn't know that we were going to put her asleep.
Friendly is one of my best friends. I know that sounds nuts. She was only like 11 or 12...she was a stray that came to us in January one snowy morning...she was eating bird food...after not leaving and numerous ads in the paper she became ours. I named her...everytime I was upset and crying should would come up to me and start kneading on me w/ her paws. She always tried to comfort me...she was the best cat ever, I swear...always purring.
When we went into the little exam room and they brought her out...she looked horrible. She was so weak she couldn't stand...she lost weight and looked skin and bones...her back bone stuck out. She was so weak her third eyelid (yes, cats have a 3rd eyelid) was closing in over her eye. It was so sad and scarry. She looked so sick. Supposedly she wasn't in any pain...but how would the doctors know?
She went downhill so fast. Last Sunday I had my hermit crab cage on the floor and Friendly jumped off the bed and started scratching at the tank. Cats hide their pain/sickness more than dogs do.
We were with Friendly for awhile before the vet came in, she said she didn't even look like she could make it through the night. While Friendly was on my lap she urinated because she couldn't hold it....it was so sad, this poor helpless animal. I had her paw in the palm of my hand and when I would move my hand away she would try to grab me, maybe as if she was saying "don't leave me", "it's okay", or "it's okay I'm ready to go"... maybe she was trying to comfort me. My dad and I left and th evet put her to sleep...my mom said that it was the most "peaceful" death (if u can even say that) she has seen. Working at an animal shelter she has gone through her share of animals being put to sleep. She was purring until the end...she didn't gasp for air or anything.
My mom came out with her wrapped in a blanket. When she was back home I realized she looked peaceful laying there in the blanket and that she wasn't in pain anymore. She looked like a little baby. The vet and my mom said she knew it was time for her to go. I'm glad that I got to be back home and say goodbye to her...my parents didn't tell me she was sick b/c they didn't want me to get upset...my mom visited her everyday and kept on saying she hoped she would make it for me to see her...I have tears in my eyes right now thinking about everything.
It feels unreal...I feel like there will be 2 plates of food in my room...Friendly will be laying on my bed...I'll cry and she'll come comfort me. Last night as I was crying on my bed all I had was Kyle to comfort me...no Friendly. I was waiting for her to come to me...I don;t believe that I'm never going to see her again. It looks so ackward seeing 1 bowl of food instead of 2. It's so hard...I am trying to keep myself busy but it doesn't help...somehow I think about Friendly. She really was the best cat and there will never be one like her again..
I love you Friendly 10/8/04
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[16 Sep 2004|10:56am] |
whoa, an update. Soo lets see. I'm at college, I hated it the first few dayd but now I like it. I got a free fish yesterday, Henry, so that was cool. I love being on the water, it's so beautiful especially at niight with the bridge. I have to post pictures somehow but I'm just so busy. I take about two naps a day, it's so bad. I'm just gonna post some highlights of my time here:
-Going sailing at 1 in the morning w Kate and 2 random guys (who don't go here!) in 20mph winds..
-Going to Providence like every week...awesome mall
-CHEESECAKE FACTORY
-meeting lots of cool people
-Newport
-free fish
-being able to see Kyle every weekend
there is soooooooo much more obviously but I can't think right now. Today is 3 weeks since I've been here! Yesterday was 6 months with Kyle :) anywayyysss I'm gonna take a shower and then a nap!
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[23 Aug 2004|10:24pm] |
wow i can't believe I'm leaving in 3 days. Everything has happened so fast...these past few weeks have flown by...where has august gone?!?!
I'm happy I have been spending a lot of time with Kyle lately. I even spent some time with my mom. I went to work w her on Friday and today I went w her to work for like an hour.
Tomorrow I have to go to the doctor in the morning then hopefully we all (myself, emily, gina, malloree & lindsay) can go to lunch. Tomorrow night Kyle & I are going out for our last dinner.
Quiznos opened up today in NH! All the cool stores are coming right when I'm leaving. Quiznos, Walmart, Target...what's up with this?!?
So I'll see Ky during our homecoming weekend and then the week before Thanksgiving I'll come home on that Friday to go to his homecoming on a Sat, then go back to school Sunday then go back home Tues for Thanksgiving break.
All my college stuff is still in a huge pile downstairs. My mom started organizing it today. I really have to organize it but I kinda don't...I guess it's because I don't want to face that college is here so soon. It's like once I get that stuff all set then I'll be all ready for college materially...not physically/mentally though. I'm trying to trick myself into thinking that it's not here in 3 days, I'll be going back to Sacred Heart and I'll know everybody and everything will be okay. It's not like that anymore. Wow. College is such a big change! I'm going to try to think positive though. I need to do that or I'll drive myself crazy.
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[20 Aug 2004|01:44am] |
I am so nervous about college. I don't want to go. What if people don't like me? What if I don't meet people? What if I don't "fit" in? I don't want to go home every weekend. What if I sleep late and miss my classes? What if I can't do the work? What if my professors are pricks?
I don't want to leave Kyle. I really don't. He's my best friend, brother, everything to me. What am I going to do without him? He makes me so happy, he makes me happy to be me. He makes me feel so loved. I miss him when I don't see him for a day, what am I going to do for over a month? How can I leave my dad? I'm going to miss him so much. I'm gonna miss having my cats, birds & guinea pig around my room. I think I'll even miss the dogs barking 24/7. I'm gonna miss going to the mailbox, walking around the block, knowing that at the end of the day I'll just go home and cuddle up in MY bed. I love my bed. I love my family. I love Kyle.
I'm not ready, I'm not. All summer I have been so excited and couldn't wait until I move in. Not anymore. Less than a week! I won't be home another Thursday until Thanksgiving!! Why am I feeling so depressed and panicky? I can't do this to myself..I can't. This is going to be harder than I thought. I have to think positive but it's so easier to think negative.
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[18 Aug 2004|09:44pm] |
Tomorrow I'm hanging out with my roommate, I can't wait to meet her!
I spent the day with Kyle since it was his day off...and the last full day we can spend together before I leave for college. I'm really trying not to think about it, I'm trying to not face reality. I really should though since it's coming up...in a week. wow. So this is how we spent our last full day...I picked him up at 12 & went to the hair dressers...we were there like an hour...then we went to the laundromat...got a sub and a movie @ the stores in the plaza...the clothes took 45 mins...went back to his house...fell asleep in his bed...his mom came home and made us dinner then we kinda cuddled and talked until 8:30ish when I left. I'm happy we got to spend the day together though.
I really want to see everyone before I leave. So many people so little time :( I wanna see Mal's new baby brother too. So cool. It's like 10 but I'm gonna go to bed..I went to bed at 5 in the morning and got up at 7! I really have a sleeping problem. I took a shower, ate breakfast, and went back to sleep until 10:30 and was up till the nap at Kyle's. OKay I'm out!!
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[15 Aug 2004|10:58pm] |
wow when did i last update? Nothing much has really been happening, I'm just trying to spend as much time with Kyle as I can. Things have been going really good, like I haven't gotten upset about leaving...until today. It came at a great time too. So for our five months we decided to go to Olive Garden (love!) and walk around the mall and then chill at my house. When I was driving to pick him up I felt a lil weird, I still felt like I was sleeping or something. I thought maybe it was b/c I gave gave blood on fri...i was a lil wacked up from that...i also have a nice 3 inch bruise on my arm...anyways I picked him up and eh I was okay I guess but then I looked in the rearview mirror and everything was shaking so i was like okay this isn't normal..i felt really weird on the way up. I was complaining about the things i still need for college and how no one will buy them and how i have no money. Then I started getting down on myself and I just burst into tears. It wasn't smart since it was raining and I was on the highway. It got sobad though I think I was having a panic attack so after I got off the exit I went on some side street and called my dad..he kinda calmed me down and then I had Kyle drive the rest of the time. Olive Garden was good...then at the mall I got a jacket at Aeropostale and Ky got me an eeyore. :) Went to linens n things afterwards and got a vaccum for college and then we got ice cream.
We got back to my house and we were watching Cheaper by the Dozen and when the guy looks at a picture of his girlfriend, who he misses b/c he just moves 4 hrs away from her..i burst into tears! It was so bad, I felt so bad for Kyle. I realized wow, I'm going to miss him soo much. It's hard not seeing him for one day, what am i going to do for months? He's like my brother, he is my best friend, he's everything to me. I'm so happy that we are together. We are so much alike and yet so different. I was crying for like 20 minutes though, I really am going to miss him! He's gonna come up for homecoming weekend so I'm excited about that :)
This entry was really all bits put together but I'm getting tired so I think I'm gonna go to bed
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[09 Aug 2004|04:45pm] |
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I'll be in Willow 4331..come visit!
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[06 Aug 2004|01:13pm] |
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well, i got a bill from roger williams that says willow fee....so I guess I'm going to be in willow. I'm excited about it! Now I just need the whole roommate/dorm number.
I went to New Hampshire with my aunt for two days, we went to the budweiser factory on the way up. We stayed in Concord which was so tiny. We went to this flower show (for the garden center) the next day which was in Loudon (where the race track is!) got some good food there, left at 2ish and went to this farm in Dublin, NH. Then we drove across to Vermont. We went home after that. Stopped at Friendly's in Enfield I think and then made it home...I was so sore after sitting in the car for 3 hours.
I watched Mystic River this morning - it was good but very sad. I just bought a few things online with my charge card...I really should not be able to have one of these :X Anyways I can't believe we are starting school so soon! I'm very excited, I have to get everything organized, right now all my stuff is downstairs all over the place and my clothes are in bags in my room.
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I'm so happy because I went clothes shopping for college! I love to shop :) I got a bbunch of jeans & pants and some tops. My mom and I were going to Target after the mall...even though she didn't want to go there...and the cars in front of us got in an accident and then the one that hit the person left. So we went back to see if the lady was okay, which she was, then went to the parking lot to look for the car. The lady found it and eventually the people, called the cops, and then like 45 minutes later the police came. So we had to wait there to tell the cop what we say and stuff. In Target I got pajamas, flip flops, a rug & this cushion box chair thing. It's cute.
My mom dropped me off at Kyle's house, which we finished cleaning his room then just cuddled in his bed. He brought me home at 9:30 because I was being crabby. Ooo I got my 2nd hole pierced! The right side hurt but the other didn't. So my ears were hurting and I had a horriable headache and I guess I was just too much for Kyle. Opps.
Today Malloree and I went to the movies and saw Harold & Kumar go to White Castle...it wasn't as bad as I thought lol. It was stupid funny of course though. Gotta love $5 Tuesday at Meriden! We went to Friendly's after and then I went to my grandmas to show her the goats & chickens then back to my house for a lil bit.
Tomorrow I'm going to New Hampshire with my aunt b/c she has to go to this flower show Thurs...I have no clue what we're going to do up there. I still have to pack some things but I'm so lazy. I just want to go to bed!
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[02 Aug 2004|10:05am] |
We got back from Jamestown yesterday afternoon and Kyle & I got soo burnt! I had a fun time though, Friday we went to Newport and ate at the Red Parrot (that is one of the best restaurants I've been too!) Went shopping a little, got back to the house and we were in bed by 8:30, how crazy is that!
Saturday we went to tag sales because they have cool stuff for cheap prices. I love deals :) I got two picture frames & I got Kyle a stereo- it's really nice, it's a 5 cd chnger/radio & cassette. We went to the beach for 3 hours and we all got so burnt! The sun wasn't out, so it was like hazy, it didn't seem like we were gonna get tan but yea I was wrong. We also walked through Fort Wetherall which was cool, it's a fort from WWII. It's closed off because people ruin it, it's such a shame. I don't know why people have to ruin something like that. It's history. It was here to protect us. I don't know why people can't respect that. It realy bothers me.
Ky & I saw The Village last night...it was okay...it held my interest...but the ending was bad. I rented What's Eating Gilbert Grape...watched it, I liked it- it was so sad though! I also rented Mystic River which I'll watch today
I think I'm going to the mall for clothes shopping for college! Woohoo! I love shopping!
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[29 Jul 2004|11:25pm] |
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I have been wanting to put my schedule in for awhile..soooo da da da here it is!
Intro to Chem Principles MTH 03:30PM 04:55PM
Is anyone else taking 7 classes? 16 credits? What am I getting myself into?
Monday:
8:00-8:55 Oceanography
9:30-10:25 Intro to College Algebra
11:00-11:55 Human Behavior in Perspect.
3:30-4:55 Intro to Chem
Tuesday:
2:00-3:25 Expository Writing
Wednesday:
8:00-8:55 Oceanography
9:30-10:25 Intro to College Algebra
11:00-11:55 Human Behavior in Perspect.
3:00-3:55 Freshmen First Year Experience
Thursday:
8:00-10:55 Oceanography Lab
3:30-4:55 Intro to Chem
Friday:
8:00-8:55 Oceanography
9:30-10:25 Intro to College Algebra
11:00-11:55 Human Behavior in Perspect.
2:00-3:25 Expository Writing
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